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My Silent Season is a Blessing

So I just graduated about 2 months ago from college with a Bachelors in Applied Computer Science. I picked this major because I thought I was good with technology(that’s another story for another day) and people in IT make great money. You know, everyone is so excited when you graduate but one you get that pretty, expensive piece of paper no one cares. They ask the occasional question “are you working you working yet?” but they don’t really care what you’re doing. You are out in the world miserable, just like them. I thought getting a degree would give me a headstart. I thought I would have a job soon after. It’s been said God laughs at our plans, but honestly I think God has a laughing fit when I’m like “God where are you? It isn’t supposed to go like this…….”. So I made applying to jobs my mission. I even toyed with the idea of moving………broke recent grad who depends on her parents for everything…….yea I moving all right. I even said “well God if I don’t get a job, I...
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Sin Part 1

I was reading the bible one day and I ran across this scripture 2 Corinthians 13:5 “Do you not realize this about yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you?”. It literally blew my mind and made me think “if Jesus lives inside of me, I don’t want him exposed to sin. Jesus is like a parent. We don’t want our parents knowing the sins we commit, but we have no problem taking God along for the ride. When we listen to music that we would be embarrassed for our parents to listen to, we need to be think about Jesus. He is too holy to be caught in the sin we drag him along in. Jesus is our father but when it comes to sin, I think of him as my child. I don’t want my child watching porn so I need to be protecting him from it. Usually when we sin, its for our benefit. We were created to worship God, not ourselves. We do what is right to please God. When he is pleased, he blesses us. P.S this will be continued
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My Apology

God im sorry for not putting you before my feelings We're a team. You picked me, even though you knew I would fail you over amd over again. I'm sorry for thinking I could override your decision and take my life, even though you gave it to me. I'm sorry for not understanding that you put me here for a reason and its my fault for not being patient enough to discover that reason. I'm sorry I don't appreciate myself,  even though you love me more than I could ever understand.  More importantly,  I'm sorry that I dont trust you. Help me in this season because I'm broken. I dont want to be in the state I'm in even though I know you have me here for a reason. One day I'll be grateful for every trial you put me through. I promise to depend on you and become who you need me to be.
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My Take On Caitlyn Jenner

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Sigh so of course I am returning with a bang………..it just wouldn’t be me without one or two…. Anyway I’m sure we all have heard about Bruce/Caitlyn Jenner. Many Christians are condemning her. Quick question: why aren’t we praying? Why aren’t we asking God to give her and us wisdom on this topic? We, as Christians, need to realize not everybody who claims to know God is a legit Christian. There are many people who say they know me, yet haven’t spent 10 minutes with me. Sound familiar? Yup, it should because we all have done this to God. I am reminded of John 10:27 “My sheep recognize my voice.” As a Christian, I’ve gotten jealous of people who say they’ve heard God’s voice. I haven’t; however, I have intuition, which I feel is the   Holy Spirit. My take on this situation is I don’t know God’s relationship with Bruce and I don’t know if God put that on his or her heart. What I do know is God didn’t send me here to judge when I sin just like everybody else. Being a true Christian...
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I'm Back!!!

I’m back!!! I feel like an awful parent who has deserted their kid! I haven’t done a blog post in months. The reason being is because I haven’t had any inspiration but now I have some topics I would like to address……….Stay Tuned!!
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2014 recap

2014 was a trying year. I made some ugly mistakes that almost ruined my life and some of the most valuable relationships I’ve ever had. I had health scares and a lot of sad days. I found my purpose and completely ignored it. I was lost and I questioned my identity. There were nights I would pray to God to end my life. I ruined my body due to an overdose that after 3 months I still haven’t recovered from. I saw Christians truly aren’t perfect and that’s ok. If we were perfect, we wouldn’t need God grace and mercy. We wouldn’t pray and have a personal and intimate relationship with God. 2014 thank you for kicking my butt but your work here is done. I pray that God guides me through 2015 and I actually listen to him fully and wholly.  
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But you need to be alone

Been slacking but I’m so back on my job! You know what I have been noticing lately?  People hate being alone. God didn’t intend for anyone to be alone (Genesis 2:18); however, he doesn’t want you giving all your time to someone who could be gone tomorrow! We have to prioritize better. We only pray at night but we talk to everybody and their momma all day, every day and half the time we don’t even like the person. Have we fallen into this mindset of doing and wanting everything we see someone else do or have? We’ve become so entertained by earthly things, we are forgetting the real goal. Don’t lower yourself to find someone that God has not created for you! God gives freely but only if we put him first. Sometimes we have to learn how to be with God and ourselves before we can be with someone else............................................. Just a random thought
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