My Apology
God im sorry for not putting you before my feelings We're a team. You picked me, even though you knew I would fail you over amd over again. I'm sorry for thinking I could override your decision and take my life, even though you gave it to me. I'm sorry for not understanding that you put me here for a reason and its my fault for not being patient enough to discover that reason. I'm sorry I don't appreciate myself, even though you love me more than I could ever understand. More importantly, I'm sorry that I dont trust you. Help me in this season because I'm broken. I dont want to be in the state I'm in even though I know you have me here for a reason. One day I'll be grateful for every trial you put me through. I promise to depend on you and become who you need me to be.